Divya+Yeleswarapu+2014

Divya Yeleswarapu 1/3/14

Sometimes to let good things happen to you, you need to let go of the bad things. Well, yeah. Obviously. But as obvious as that sounds, it's kinda crazy how a good handful of us don't realize that we're doing just the opposite. We think we're happy and the things we're doing are right and the people we're associating ourselves are making us better individuals. But that's the key word..."we THINK." We don't KNOW. Who knows? No one, actually. No one knows. However it's pretty easy to tell who or what is a positive/negative influence based on the response from what's going on around you. And 99.9% of the time, if we think what we're doing is right, we completely bulldoze over the response we get from our friends and family and ignore their attempts at trying to help us. In the heat of the moment everyone thinks they're right. It's so hard to overcome that feeling of wanting to try new things, be a new person, and defy the people around you...just because it gives such a satisfying feeling when you're actually doing it. The perfect pictures painted in the movies don't really do much to help, in fact they only add to your haze that everything is going to work out wonderfully in the end. If you're like me in any way, you like to imagine scenarios in your head that really have NO chance of happening or working out. And then you frame those scenarios in pretty pink ribbons, throw multicolored glitter on top, cut them out with your favorite pair of crazy scissors, and worship them. But you notice one thing. A repeating pattern. Your trust gets broken every time. Every time. And no, I'm not going to launch into some sad story about heartbreak or a lost love or being cheated on, because as much as it sounds like it is, that's not what this is about. I've just realized that there are so many obvious things that we hide from ourselves that are right there in plain sight for us to see, and when we get hurt yet once again, we go crazy and get all depressed acting like we never saw it coming. Well hey here's a wake up call...WAKE UP. And no, if you think you're awake, you're actually not. None of us are. At least not yet. We're young and stupid and complete idiots and we're going to learn it the hard way. But we can do ourselves a favor and lessen the pain by at least taking off the blindfold and actually paying attention to the things that are made clear to us. Don't keep imagining things that you know for sure are never going to happen. If you know it FOR SURE, then there is no way you can change that so why are you wasting your time? We don't have much time to begin with so you need to use whatever time we do have, changing things you know you CAN change. I've wasted too much of my time trying to change things I knew I couldn't change and people I knew I couldn't change. In the end, everyone else always walks away unscathed and I'm just left here with my trust broken once again. I'm not going to stop trusting people and I'm still going to trust them just as fast, but I know one thing now that I didn't before, and that is to pay attention to the obvious. As much as I want to believe that I can just cover my eyes and everything will be exactly the way I want it to be in my head, I can't do that. None of us can do that. If we want to be happy we need to stop pretending and face the facts. That needs to start now because we're just a bunch of crazy teenagers who need a reality check before it's too late. Really look at the people and things you've surrounded yourself with and get rid of everything and everyone that doesn't make you a better person. Clear away the bad things and cherish the good ones. It's the best gift you can give yourself.