Esther+Han+2014

2013 was so crazy. I’ve made so many new friends, but also let go of so many. I made so many great memories but also some bad ones too. I learned a lot of things too. First. Don’t ever try to make yourself believe something that isn’t true. If something isn’t true but you pretend it is, at one point, you won’t be able to convince yourself any longer and then it sucks because you kinda screwed up. I’ve done that so many times yet I never stop doing it. Its pretty sad because I feel like I don’t learn from my mistakes. Second. Always be nice. Everyone can gossip once in a while, but constant gossiping and sharing and telling people so many negative thoughts about a certain someone does not get you anywhere. Nothing good comes out of being mean; although there may be a temporary satisfaction, in the long run it’ll come to bite you back. Don’t talk about someone and expect they will never find out, because trust me, they somehow will eventually. I screwed up so much in my past telling people things about other people I shouldn’t tell them, and even though it may take a while for the other people to find out, they eventually find out. However long it will take, it will somehow get to that person. The consequences may not be bad depending on the person, but always expect the worst. Third. Don’t say sorry if you don’t mean it. Saying sorry if you don’t mean it is kind of like making a promise to someone when you know you’re going to break it. And if you say sorry if you don’t mean it you’re most likely going to make the same mistake again and again and again. Don’t ever do it for the other person’s forgiveness or just sympathy from the other person because you actually won’t learn from your mistakes. You say you will, but really you’re not going to learn anything. So basically, you really just shouldn’t say anything you don’t genuinely mean. Don’t say sorry to someone until you really feel like you can change from that. Fourth! Its something everyone does a lot, and I’m not saying never lie, but try not to lie about anything really serious. Sometimes it’s good to lie, like when you don’t want to kill the person’s low self esteem or anything (HAHAHA im so mean), but lying also leads you nowhere. Lying is the most immature thing anyone can ever do, especially because the truth is eventually going to come out, you know it too. The more you lie, the more you have to try to get rid of. Lies are a pain to get rid of and I’m sure getting rid of one is tough enough! I’ve had so many problems with people with lying recently, and it just honestly drives everyone crazy and its just stupid unnecessary drama that could have easily been prevented by just telling the truth. In the past month, so much stuff has been happening because of straight up lying (including withholding information) and it’s just a waste of time and so unnecessary. Another thing. This probably goes for me more than anyone else, but you should never try to promise yourself something when everyone else doesn’t think you can keep the promise to yourself. Not gonna lie, I screwed up so much this year. And maybe I’m being a hypocrite right now because I still make stupid decisions too and don’t follow my own advice. I’m really trying to change too, stocking up those new years resolutions :) Happy new year everyone!!!!!! (If anyone even reads this LOL) 
 * JANUARY 2ND 2014 **