Jacob+Tyles+2014

I think I'll start with something that bothers me quite a bit...

One of the more phasing questions someone can ask me is the obligatory "What do you want to do when you are older?" Right then and there I sort of //freeze//, if you will, because frankly I don't know exactly what I want to do in life. My passions are in music, math, and physics, and that is what I answer if someone asks. The possibility of combining the three might be an idea well worth the time. Unfortunately it's not all about the passion. Music, like many other artistic venues, is not very stable monetarily. If one needs to live off of the income a musician, with all the federal, state, and other taxes taken into account, then you //really// need to love what you do to cope with the financial troubles you might receive. I might be wrong however. Perhaps one day I might be graced with luck, and score a spot in fame or with a well paying group. All my troubles would be gone, and I would lead a life of amorous bliss. The bigger picture that comes into play is one that I have thought about for more than 5 years. How does one balance passions and the overall pursuit of happiness while securing a successful living, if the two areas do not coincide? Music is very tricky to accomplish this, and although I sincerely love it, I do not know if I want to pursue it in my years of higher education. Now of course math and especially physics have more sturdy foundations for jobs. Physics describes the behavior of everything in the known universe, from the flow of water to projectiles to nuclear fission. __It's all there.__ Math is the philosophy and argumentation for the field of physics, so the two are complementary. Music is structured similarly to the mechanics of the world, from the basis of beat and rhythm to melodic dictation and harmonic progressions. There is also a lot of math in music, take my word for it for the sake of brevity. I suppose that I like these three categories because they are so similar to each other. Perhaps they explain the things in life that go unnoticed, as well as the everyday phenomena that are occur in accord to the laws of nature. If I may go one step deeper as I write this, I can learn a little bit more about myself. I like to learn and figure out how things happen, and then right after why they do. Maybe that is indicative to my character. I live to explore, and the tools of my passions drive me forward, relentlessly. The building blocks of physics and of music explain so much to me, that I notice their application in everyday life. As for now, I am lost in a sea of possibilities. At least I have my passions. At least I can say what it is I love, versus what it is I want to do. To me, I'll be damned if I know what I want to do for the rest of my life at the age of 16. It's the process that will take me there. That's the beauty of it.